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|Saturday, November 26th, 2005|
Last night was fun. Criminal activity, breaking shit for no apparent reason, being stupid, fighting etc...just an average night with us I guess, but you know what, I wouldn't change it for the world. You know why? Cuz they're my peoples and I guess if I really had to admit it, I love them. Current Mood: chipper
|Friday, November 25th, 2005|
Go figure... Current Mood: annoyed
|Monday, November 21st, 2005|
|Gotta Love It
So yesturday I saw a bunch of horses riding up out the hood with a bunch of thug lookin muthafuckas riding them. They rode right through the intersection like it was natural...now that's something you don't see everyday.
HOME TOMORROW.... Current Mood: cheerful
|Thursday, November 17th, 2005|
|'Tis the Season
I'm excited about Christmas. Seriously. I get a month off of school and I get to spend time with my family and friends. There's something about the season that makes me feel so young and happy and warm. Only problem is the stress I have to deal with because finals are rapidly approaching. I also wish I had the luxury of jumpin in the car and goin to the mall to go Christmas shopping. Damn subway. The next time I go home I have a lot to accomplish.
1.) Finish some homework
2.) Visit some peoples
3.) Invite a friend or two to come shoppin with me
4.) eat lots of turkey
I really really really can't wait for next week. Who's with me??? Current Mood: excited
|Friday, November 4th, 2005|
This is gonna be a lot harder than I thought.... Current Mood: discontent
|Monday, October 31st, 2005|
|Happy Muthafuckin Halloween
That shit was entirely too fun. We got to scare the shit outta these little North Philly kids. I understand they usually have it hard therefore act hard but to see them piss themselves over a white girl in a fencin mask is priceless. And when I say piss themselves, I'm being literal. Three of em peed themselves, one peed in the elevator, one got so scared they pulled the fire alarm, one throw an egg at someone and another three an iron at my friends head. There was no actual bloodshed though but it was funny as hell. Keisha, my RD, had to shut it down early though cuz it was gettin too rough. I haven't had this much fun on Halloween for a long long time. Ya gotta love the college life.... Current Mood: bouncy
|Lying in Wait, Questioning My Destiny....
I feel like I'm at such a good point in my life right now. Drama that used to drag me down in the past has become obsolete. My friendship are growing and flourishing and I feel free. I figure, why stress over mundane things when I can just roll with the punches and take life as it comes. I honestly wish I could just write exactly how I feel but I honestly don't think it requires further explanation for other peoples eyes to read. Just know that I'm goin aight and I'm livin my life... Current Mood: loved
|Thursday, October 20th, 2005|
|Comin to break you off....
So today I went to a FREE Roots concert. It was great, I fell in love with this group called Little Brother and seeing The Roots that up-close and personal was amazing. The only thing that sucked was this white bitch got made cuz I called her a bitch but hey, I call em like I see them. She's lucky I wasn't in a fightin mood cuz I woulda fucked her up. And I saw one of my favorite spoken word artists Black Ice, I was mesmorized.
The bad thing: I really like him and I don't know if I like him cuz of him or because he's the only guy I'm close enough to to have a crush on, and I never see him and it hurts and I feel wounded, and slightly alone right now..... Current Mood: happy
|Monday, October 17th, 2005|
|Two day hangover or head cold?
...that is the question up for debate. So, this weekend was very interesting. Selina and Tristan can over, I fell back into lust with my first Temple crush and I got horribly drunk. Friday, we just walked around cuz nothin was goin on and I saw my boy :-)...Saturday we went to the most ghetto theatre where it was pitch black and the movie started mid-scene, and then we went to Red Lobster where we somehow all managed to order the same thing without realizing it. We also got lost goin to the movie theatre because mapquest sux and we were quoting Dave Chappelle the entire time(fuck yo contract!!, Black, darkness, black magic muthafucka). Got back to the dorm, got hassled by security for like the 8th time in the past two days, watched Scarface, Tristan left, we (me, Selina, Ashlee, and Daniella) went to Pi Lam and got plastered. I kept sayin the most random stuff apparently like, "if _ _ _ _ _ was here, I'd fuck his braids out". And yes, that does say braids!! Got back to the dorm and somehow managed to get through security and then painted the carpet with never-ending shrimp. Not fun. I was also fully convinced that Selina was dead the entire time and Ashlee had to keep tellin me she wasn't. So Sunday, hung over, lazy, Ashlee sprained her ankle, fought with Tyiarra (suprise suprise), watched Run's House(DJ High School hahaha), Selina left, ordered chinese food, found out Matt got a new car and then slept. And now I think I will sleep some more....wat a weekend....
Damn homie I'm so tore
And I dont think I'm ever gone somke no more
And I dont think I'm ever gone drink no more
But fuck it bartender you can give me one more Current Mood: sick
|Tuesday, October 11th, 2005|
So apparently, "I want to see 'The Fog'" means "I want you to ram your tongue down my throat". I'll never understand this new school lingo....asshole still means asshole right? Current Mood: thoughtful
|Saturday, October 8th, 2005|
|Let That Man Get the Best of You...Baby That's a Shame
It's not even that I like him like that. I just don't want to have this sick feelin that I'm bein played. I mean, how hard is it for a guy to tell u from the jump what he's lookin for. I want to be pursued, I want to be romanced and sometimes, I just wanna be friends. That cat and mouse game can be intriguing when the feelings are there. I don't know what I feel about him. Am I leadin him on? Is he leadin me on? Why am I letting this get to me? I feel like he's hidin something from me and if he could just lay the facts out on the table, maybe I'd be more willin to except and understand my feelings. I'm skeptical of everyone I meet, and this experience isn't makin me feel any more comforted. Fuck it, I'ma just go out and play the game. That's the only way to find "the one". I have no desire to settle.
Anyway, I have plans in about 5 minutes and hopefully they'll turn out good and hopefully they involve food cuz I'm hungry as a muthafuc--!! Current Mood: moody
|Wednesday, October 5th, 2005|
|Thugs is convicts in God's Prision....
So, what's new in the life of Tory? I'm currently "dating" someone if you can call it that. I'm still in the market, boy shoppin is fun, especially in the hood, aka the area behind my dorm aka "The Bad Lands" aka North Philly or as I like to call it, home, lol. Tim visited me on Monday and bought me dinner and gave me $20, haha, he's my bitch. My peoples are visitin me on the weekend on the 15th, that should be fun. I think next year is gonna be more wild than this year cuz more of my friends from home will be here and plus I'll have all of my friends from here already. I'm excited lol.... Current Mood: bouncy
|Sunday, September 25th, 2005|
|Need 2 Move On.....?
I need to let go of the past and move on completely. There's too much built up pain and anger there. Too much drama. I'm hurt right now and the people who usually make me feel better have lost the ability to ease the pain. I can't get the one thing I truly want. I never could. I feel alone and all I want is the sunshine to come back out. I need stability. I need to reassert my strength and prove to the world that I know exactly where I'm going. Fuck that, I don't need to prove shit to no one. I know who I am. I want support but for now I guess it's me against the world. Current Mood: gloomy
|Saturday, September 24th, 2005|
Horoscope for Virgo-9/24/05:
Does it feel like you're in the middle of a whirlwind? Be patient and don't overreact, even if those you love are changing their minds and plans with frequent abandon. Ride this out, and soon everything will be calm once more.
This is so true for me today. I probably shoulda read it in the morning so the whirlwind wouldn't have been so harsh but either way, hopefully it will calm down... Current Mood: crappy
|Thursday, September 15th, 2005|
So, today I met JD Williams manager. I didn't actually get a chance to talk to him but I was still super hyped. Baby steps, that's what it is. Day by day I'm starting to feel better and stronger like soon I'll be able to take on the world. And tonight, seeing that lecture with Benny Boom was incredible because it made me feel like my dreams aren't that far away and I can accomplish great things and many things if I just put my mind to them. Current Mood: giddy
|Tuesday, September 13th, 2005|
So I decided to take on a second major. I am now majoring in Buisness Enterperneurship and English. Like my Dad said, strange combination, but I think it'll work. I was gonna minor in English anyway so this is just another step up. If I can fit in a minor it'll probably be in some sort of social sciences. All of these studies seem random but in my mind it makes perfect sense. I also decided to join Hyphen, which is Temple's literary magazine. Today a consultant, in four years...president. LOL, I'm just joking about that, or am I. It would be nice to be the person in charge of Hyphen but we'll wait on that. Now that I have my path smoothed out again, I think I'll be aight. I've also been going to a few parties but I think I might cool that for awhile 1.) because it's only three weeks into school and I should focus on getting stable first. I still have four years to party so I think I'll use my freshman year to get used to it all, 2.) I don't really know the people I've been going with. I'd rather party with my friends then just random people because that's more fun. So to conclude that session, this year, studies, next year parties. I'm not tryin to end up like Quinn, lol. Selina, don't tell him I said that lol. And I'm coming home this weekend again because honestly I got things to handle at home and I miss my peoples.
Rest in Peace 'Pac: 9 years today... Current Mood: enthralled
|Monday, September 5th, 2005|
...this is the most I've written in my livejournal, probably ever and most of the entries sound pretty much the same. Oh, well. So today I'll be returning to college after what I think was a pretty damn good weekend. I saw my peoples, my friends, my homies(in case that confuses you, my peoples are my family, my friends are people who I don't hang out with on the daily but I'm still cool wit and my homies are my best friends. Ya like, I just made it up right now, lol). Anyway, I got a lot accomplished too and I kinda wish I could stay a little longer to tie up a few loose ends but I must return now to my school, my new friends and my studies. I miss my home, my neighborhood and the bullshit that comes with being here. But, there's always Thanksgiving. And my birfday's tomorrow so that should be fun..... Current Mood: drained
|Saturday, September 3rd, 2005|
|Home is Where the Heart Is
So I'm home for the weekend and it's probably one of the best feelings you could imagine. Yes, I've only been at college for a week and while I wasn't really home sick, it just feels good to come home where everything is familiar. I hope when I get back up there things continue to go smoothly but for now I'm just gonna sit back and enjoy my time at home. Current Mood: excited
|Thursday, September 1st, 2005|
|Okay, I feel better...
I feel so much better about college now. I got out today and was able to explore and meet people and I feel so much better. But, I also can't wait to go home tomorrow. I have so many things lined up and it feels good to know that. I thrive in chaos so I should be aight. Current Mood: chipper
|Wednesday, August 31st, 2005|
|Still Not Sure....
I don't mind college but when I sit in my dorm I feel useless. I always have to be out and about in order to feel like my life has some meaning. Is that weird? I'm gonna try and partake in as many activities as possible so I can get out. I can't wait to go home this weekend. I need to stop thinking as much. I need to take my freshman year in stride and not push myself. Give it a few weeks and I'll be alright, I'm sure. Current Mood: crappy